humid morning thoughts

             I'll be honest, I've been dreading this post for a while. Not because I don't enjoy writing, because I truly do - but I have so much to write about and am afraid of sounding like I'm writing a timeline while recounting the past month. I'm still processing the fact that I have my first year of college under my belt. It can be summed up in these words: you don't realize how capable you are until you have no other option. Or rather, you learn just how merciful God is as he equips you to do what you couldn't do on your own. I have been accepted into the nursing program at my university, and will begin clinical rounds this fall. One step closer to my dream of becoming a nurse. Even though I love my major and can't wait to see where nursing takes me, I keep asking myself, "is this my dream or is this what God has for me? Am I pursuing my own ambition or being let by the Lord?" Because I want to be doing what the Lord planned for me to do.
        I believe that each one of us has a part to play in God's divine Plan. It's not so much "what is the Lord's plan for my life" as it is "how will He use me?" Over the past several years I have been realizing that 1) I will probably be overseas after I graduate, 2) I will be working with the poor, and 3) I will be involved with orphans and victims of human trafficking. I don't know where I will be or how things will shape up. I don't know if it will be right after I graduate or 20 years up the road. But I know that, right now, I can pray and ask the Lord for guidance.

I don't need to know the whole road ahead yet, just the next step.